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[20 Jun 2004|01:42pm] |
but fuck it.
golden opportunity around a pc.
and you know what i have to say to the latest entries i read that have my name in them.
ha bitch, now what!
i dont care what you or your fellow compulsive liar bren have to say about me. i think its great that ive made such tragedy in both your lives because both you crazy bitches deserve it.
good luck with that 'new circle of friends' jenni, haa whats gonna happen when they realize youre completly insane? try not to get to everyone in jacksonville before you die, you might run out of victims.
go fucking eat your bloody fetus bitch, you know youre hungry!
peace.
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[24 Apr 2004|11:13am] |
hmm. in recent events shows my life is changing.
and i just dont have time to keep up with this.
katie i love you and i miss you, ill see you soon.
and to everyone else im sure you have my number or ill see you around.
this is my last entry guys.
to you-you gave me OUR movie. i love you, but youre so distant, call me soon.
<3
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[18 Apr 2004|03:20pm] |
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so im over it.
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[08 Sep 2003|10:24pm] |
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i wish i was black.
man im bored someone come hang out with me.
i also need somemore livejournal friends.
and jess if you had a livejournal meet up, ill HELP you arrange it.
<3
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[11 Aug 2003|02:45pm] |
alright.
everything is now going to be friends only, even though latley i have only written friends only.
thats what its going to be from now on.
the people i have added im keeping.
if anyone wants to be added just leave me a comment, and ill think about it, its a no doubt if i already i know you, but if i dont, dont even bother.
p.s. i have this livejournal code and i want to do something cool with it, like a start an awesome community. i need some ideas.
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[10 Aug 2003|07:14am] |
wow, i love those kids.
so unexpected. so fun.
i couldnt sleep before work did some grocery shopping at superwalmart, spent 50 dollars. laaame.
today im going to work in about 15 minutes, then calling james around 4 to see whats up with the tat business..
holy shit im so exhausted, i took 2 energy pills, i hope it works.
im missing some people, so much.
i even miss certain people when they sit right next to me.. buts thats because i get pathetic.
and people fill out that quiz i had on one of my last entries!
its so cool to see what people know about me..
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[01 Aug 2003|04:14pm] |
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i wore alot of green today.
i did this either because
1.im jealous [green with envy]
2.i need pot.
3.as my manager and hez said, im a fucking leprechaun?
-loser
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| cigarette smoke and lipstick stains. |
[31 Jul 2003|01:45am] |
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maan, i havent been feeling well lately.
i dont know why, like when im high i feel fine, ofcourse, but when im not, i feel all sick and shit..
the pot numbs me or something.
i need to goto the doctor.
so like i was really excited about the gin blossoms comeing, like really exited (90's alternative!!!:), but jessica is talking about having a huge party at a banquet hall, with like over 100dollars in liquer, and a few kegs, with a whole shitload of people. AND theyre talking about getting an oz of crypy..
the same night..
i think ill goto the party ++ GNF is going to play (hopefully).. i hope my friends come out to that.. that would be tiiiight.
atten:
sometime this week ill be getting that alk3 dvd, and erin and mark are comeing over to watch it.
if anyone else wants to come over and watch it let me know. preferably having a ride.
but i mean come on, how cool is that video going to be?!
i close the rest of the week or get off at nine, so it wont be till later either.
<3
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[28 Jul 2003|01:31am] |
i love this band so much
this is a great story.
Enter Alkaline Trio, circa 1997. Right out of the gate, the kids realized that while this may still be loosely categorized as "pop-punk," it’s a full step beyond. There’s a dark side to this band, a world-weariness, and some honest-to-whoever honesty all balled up into a completely kinetic force. Even the jaded fucks can’t help but sing along to those two different-but-perfectly-complementary voices, singer/guitarist Matt Skiba’s triumphant rasp and singer/bassist Dan Andriano’s more measured, sweet croon as they combine to completely wreck audiences with bittersweet songs about love and loss, drugs and drink,God and Satan, happiness and pain. All of this comes from three young guys, about as many chords, and a healthy supply of beer, cigarettes, and heartbreak.
read more here!!
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| one of my friends always consumes my mind. |
[27 Jul 2003|04:04am] |
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Comments: Posted: 1,088 - Received: 1,267
good god! thats a ton.
i worked all day today. im not joking, i worked 10-6 then came back at 7 worked till close[1030].
im exhausted, but i cant sleep, and i have to be into work tommorow at 10!
i think i might go home early by choice, that would be amazing.
today is one of those day i want to put behind me, kinda forget about.
waay way to much weird things went on today. like with my manager at work, he really hurt my feelings, and everything sort of got out of hand, a misunderstanding really, everythings fine now..
THEN! im driving to go get ian from the band room, and some fucking guy, bleeding, just like jumped in front of my car.
i freaked out and i started crying because i like drove off, i almost hit the guy, but i swirved out of his way into the other lane.
very weird.
i went to jennis tnite, marc and charli were there also, geez they are a hot pair. jenni be lucky .
anyhow, it was very awkward.. i think they knew i thought it was seeing as that i said it like 10 times. but it was, and i didnt like it.
im not going to goto sleep, i think i just may roll a joint.
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[25 Jul 2003|10:59pm] |
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i wish i could just hate people sometimes.
just get over them in a second and not care.
never works.
i dont know what kind of drugs i was on, because i thought i was going to be lucky, and something was going to go my way.
i live in a dream world.
anyhow, back to reality.
last night i had fun with everyone i saw in georgia.
smoked alot, drank alot, got pretty fucked up.
it was fun.
went to amys this afternoon, after a smoke with gary, richie and chad, which was nice. no pot for me till next friday, reason being: save money. anyhow, amy, taylor, and i went to lunch at applebees. it was nice to have girltalk.
i cut amys hair, im telling you it looks fucking fabulous. shes posting pictures soon im sure.
i came home tnite around 8.
i felt very down. like i have so much talent in things i do, and i live this mediocre life, struggling at some points. and besides my few friends that i care about and my family, i have no one to really share the things i can accomplish with.
i wish i could have just stayed up there with amy.
i just felt very out of place with my roomates and our friends tnite, i didnt say much of anything.
i also think it had something to with the fact that i have alot on my mind. alot to handle.
i hate that point in your life where you come to dead end, and you either can turn around and start over or you can just sit there staring at your interior lights with the music blasting and just not care.
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[24 Jul 2003|12:53am] |
does my new icon make you wet, or what?
good christ i love these guys.
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[23 Jul 2003|11:32pm] |
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christins and free facials this morning.
it was very nice, especially the little orderves she served, very cute.
work tnite was alot of fun.
alex- the same goes out to you about my favorite coworker, i look forward to hanging out with you at work.
i smoked with larry, and he bought a joint off of me for 3 dollars, and it was a fucking pinnar, i kinda felt bad.
talked to adam some afterwork, he tried convincing me of his extreme sex abilities with his last girlfriend, i laughed it off, i couldnt picture that boy being good in bed.
anyhow, tommorow im going to my parents, my brother wont be there that kind of sucks. but oh well. i think ill see if they want to go out for lunch or something.
stephens birthday was today and ian and i called and sang to him. he offered me something i could not resist.woo.
CKyJackass2006: you should cut down on the drugs..
i think that my brother thinks i do heroine or something.
haha what a funny kid.
gnite.
<3
amy, tommorow!!!
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| im sure i fucked up somehow |
[23 Jul 2003|02:29am] |
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the past couple of days have been great.
i came home yesterday, and jason was here, and saved me a personal bowl of crippy.
he felt bad about not putting me on the guestlist saturday.
i was like "wow." what a wonderful kid.
smoking your pot with me, means alot, and i dont care if anyone thinks thats stupid, it does.
im also a happy girl because:
1.i purchased the dan andriano split cd off here
2.erinA and teresa came in today.
3.i bought pot today.
4.listening to aar, not caring if anyone thinks im stupid for it.
and 5.im high of course.
on the way home tnite i thought about georgia, so i think thursday evening ill come up.
i gotta see amy and stacie.
and i want to visit chad, because man that kid rocks.
and anyone else that wants a visit too.
also im happy becuase i found out since i moved, my brother bryan is actually cool, outside of living with him. and i dont care if he doesnt smoke anymore, we will have smokefest one day at my house.
there is so much weird shit on my mind though.
( Read more... )
anyhow i also had a great convo with erinA, if you care,
( Read more... )
kristen: if you were talking about me and want to tommorow, call me whenever you plan on going, i sleep late hours, so if you call ill get up.:)
matt collins: i saw snip the other night and he was talking about you guys comeing over one day next week, and well we got sidetracked and i never gave him my number.. so IM me and ill give you that shit, if youre down with coming over here.
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| an ode to livejournal : |
[21 Jul 2003|03:46pm] |
so i guess andrew is like this new god because he says that livejournal is childish.
and now it seems that everyone is agreeing with him on their recent posts.
honesly, everyone knows livejournal is chilish, everyone knows its used for gossip and information. i mean seriously, it is in out human nature to want to know what our worst enemy is doing every day. someone that you claim to hate, you still care about their lives in some way.
it ridiculous.
but i mean come on, the name of the fucking site is LIVEjournal, not privatejournal, you know? i just dont see where everyone is comeing off now JUST realizing it, or have known, but like to bathe in the drama. i mean if you dont like it, dont diss the people that have fun with it, just fuck off.
this is nothing against andrew at all, im letting that be known, andrew is an awesome friend. i just thought i would throw in a little of my thoughts.
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[21 Jul 2003|06:49am] |
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i saw everyone in the world today that either A.i havent seen in while or B.made me really happy to see them. im making a list.
1. mrs.guzzone
2. shawn decoursey
3. kia
4. carly
5. kristen<3(beauty queen)
6. adam<3(my fagatron)
7. fallon(even though she didnt say hi, and gave me a horrible look :/, its wierd how people hate me for no reason)
8. leigh arklie
9. snip
10. ricky kennedy
and there were some unexpected lj friends too.
against me! was amazing, they were better the first time i saw them though, but that could have been due to rnr pizza's sound sucking.
amy stacie erin donnie and i went out to eat after the show, saw mark. talked.
amy stacie and i came back to my house, and have been chilling and talking ever since.
sonny came over too.
we talked alot about past shit. it was weird.
we love sonny though.
im going to go take a shower and let the magic begin.;)
p.s. i dont know if you still read, but im glad that we can stay friends. <3
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[20 Jul 2003|02:00am] |
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nothing.
nothing at all.
i just dont get why i have to do this shit all the time.
its the same reaction everytime.. same one.
i dont know what to say.
after i say so much, along with so much depth.
im going to lose everyone that means an ounce of anything to me.
i wish i had this huge heart, the would let me put shit behind me for the sake of a friendship, but im so afraid of being/feeling hurt or fucked over.
i never can, so then i just let go.
why is the escape route always the easiest one?
fuck me.
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[19 Jul 2003|03:49pm] |
i dont want to work today.
yesterday sucked and today is probably going to too.
but tnite,GNF is playing, thats ian's band.
jackrabbits, they go on at 11.. if anyone wants to, come out and support them.
and next saturday they are playing freebird.
its going to be tight.
everyone who knows ian loves that kid, come and support his ass.
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[19 Jul 2003|03:25am] |
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tnite at work was fucking terrible.
justin, carly and kyle came in, i got in trouble.
tim, hooter and stacie came in, and i was bitch and got yelled at by my managers.
I LOVE YOU GUYS! AND IM SO SORRY I WAS BEING ALL STRESSED OUT AND RUDE!<333
you georgia kids are amazing, i was just really working hard tnite, and still got bitched out for everything.
came home, DEREK bernard was here with like two of his friends. jessica invited them over. they are pretty cool.
weve been sipping on crown and smoking the whole night.
ian told me this tnite and almost made me cry:
the convo started out how i am always being fucked over, and he knows because we have been close for a few years.
but he was like "seriously sammy i dont see how these guys fuck you over, they are missing out on an amazing person, and will regret it for the rest of their lives."
i was just like, "omg, thank you!"
how amazing is that shit?
anyhow,
i can wait till sunday when stacie and amy come down!AND against me!
its going to be tight.
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